I know that you know that the meaning of life is love.
I recently found out that all the love in the world couldn’t fix something that deeply made me unhappy.
I love my husband, I fiercely love my children, I love my friends.
I love croissants and they are readily available.
But I couldn’t shake the unhappiness I felt over my career.
When hate runs deep
I hated my job. I’d worked there for around 11 years with a few stints over here and having babies over there.
After we decided that we have enough children and I started back at work, suddenly my future looked bleak.
I found myself at a desk, in an office, doing a job that was totally wrong for me, and I thought “This can’t be it.”
I realised that I no longer had anything to look forward to. This was it. This was what I did now. I came to an office, I typed up boring emails, I ate a late lunch so my afternoons were shorter and I hated every second of those seven hours and 15 minutes.
No more maternity leave. No upcoming holidays. Absolutely no hope.
I was totally uninspired.
But I couldn’t let this happen.
The Game of Life
You know that board game, ‘The Game of Life’? The one where you choose your own adventure on a board?
Well, I was now on a mission to create the life that I wanted, one board game step at a time.
As a relentless soul-searcher, I believe that we are spiritual beings having a human experience. I know you may think me a dill but hear me out.
In a moment of clarity, in that moment when I thought “this can’t be it,” I made a decision.
This won’t be it.
I can control my own destiny and I got myself this far, but it was time for a gear shift.
I took stock of my life and I understood that I have been neglecting my career because I was focusing on my family.
But now that my family have all vacated my body and I was a free agent again, it was time to zone in on the only part of my life that I truly felt unfulfilled with – my career.
I knew what I didn’t want…
Now I had to figure out what I did want.
And what I wanted first and foremost was to enjoy my job.
No more boring ass jobs and working in boring ass offices. That part of my life is over.
I want a job that excites me, that involves travel. And I want to do something happy and joyful. I want to make people laugh. My face already does half the work so the rest couldn’t be that hard.
And I realised that I have been doing all of that with my real love and side hustle, my sweet blog TBoB and the podcast Lindalin and I started, Wine Chats with Bildo and Lindalin.
I was getting all the right feels and the stars were aligning.
I realised that I’ve been laying down the groundwork for my new career for years and now was the time to take a chance and go for it.
It’s now or never, right?
So I quit my job
That’s right, I did it! The end of 2019 saw me quitting my office job and 2020 has started out with me in the Boss chair. So far, I have been a very lax boss with not a lot of rules and absolutely no uniform, but that’s cool, we’re working on it.
I gave up amazing benefits, flexible work, a team full of women who I loved – but I gained peace.
I gained a sense of myself and what I really wanted to do. And don’t roll your eyes at my wishy washy ways, but I finally started listening to the Bildo that’s been trapped inside, suppressed and quieted for too long.
I became so scared to leave my cushy job (even though it made me miserable), that I forgot what I am really made for – and that’s you. I’m made to entertain you and make you laugh.
So stick with me and I promise we’ll have a lot of fun together. This year, Lindalin and I are starting a YouTube Channel and we will be infiltrating your phone feeds and lives in every way possible. We’re shooting for the stars and taking you with us!
And in that spirit, I would love to know all your thoughts and suggestions for future posts and topics, so hit me in the comments below or feel free to email me at email@example.com.
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Can’t wait to hear from, you!
Remember – you do you, don’t be a dick and most of all – be happy!
Love from me, to you,